The Most Important Creative Project

Last night, following a gruelingly long 20 hour day, I plopped on the sofa exhausted. After vegging on something mindless, I went to bed. My heart pounded in my chest. Was this an anxiety attack? I hear about that kind of thing all the time. What does an anxiety attack feel like?

Reset the attitude button and start the day on the right foot. The activities that consume my time actually give me a lot of enjoyment. I have nothing to complain about. So where did that overwhelming sense of -- whatever that is called -- come from? Probably the same angst that has driven so many artists to madness over history.

Considering the projects I am working on, there is nothing that might warrant a mini-freak out. The most important creative project I am working on is...me. Coming to that time in a life when the realization that change is possible and necessary can take a very long time. Sadly, a lot of people never realize the potential for life fulfillment through change. Small changes that yield massive rewards.

I remember a story that described Michangelo's method for selecting marble for a project. He spent considerable time in a quarry observing slabs of marble. The project would become visible in his mind's eye. His task was then to chip away the excess to uncover the art, so he could detail it, and buff it for public enjoyment.

The chipping process took a toll on me the last few days. Through the process of self-discovery, I am uncovering aspects of my talent that I have not seen in years. My mind is sharper. My patience deepened. Today I even broke out my strathmore pad and colored pencils to play with some new web site designs. Every little burst of creative energy strikes a new neural pathway for my future.  2010 looks promising.